open the window and let the rain pour in

when the rain falls, hard down on the windshield. i'll only have these memories to hold onto. when the heavy rain sweeps me away from under my feet and brings me to a river - in which i see you sitting upon rocks by the shore, singing softly along with the birds.
the nature will contrast off your skin and you'll glow from within. forgive me, for i cannot suppress how i feel.
i want to love you so bad, but selfishness has swept over me like a heavy rain cloud. i can't bring myself to express those emotions towards you.
when we stepped into the wilderness; there were seas of green and oceans of blue, surrounding us . when we walked into the clearing the wind played with our hair and made us smiled at it's foolishness. there was a river beyond the forest, it was peaceful there. with the birds singing softly, delicately and the river flowing so steadily

the feelings you receive are only the feelings that press me from telling you how i feel.
opening up the package is like dropping a bomb.
break down, majortime.
and in front of you? i can't picture it right

i can't picture these walls right
drinking muddy water through a straw
to get to the bottom of everything.

it's raining again
just like it has basically all week
off and on
usually through the night
im sure it would seep in through a sieve into my room if i let it


-ps. expect a more meaningful post sometime in two months.